Burdensome Happiness

Life is good.
Well, sometimes...
For me, it's been kind of difficult lately.

Auburn University is seriously, in my mind, one of if not the greatest place on Earth. I love everything about it. But school is t-o-u-g-h. The hardest thing I've ever had to go through. If I do not study my rear off all of the time, I won't succeed. That's a lot of pressure for a measly freshman to handle.

Not only are grades and academic success so consuming, making new relationships has become an enjoyable burden, (if that makes sense). I love all of the new friends I've made since coming to Auburn, and I honestly don't know what I would do without some of them now. But yet, even all the fun times and memory making and hanging out is quite a heavy schedule in itself.

A lot of people would say, "What has this girl got to complain about? Sounds like the good life to me!"
And they would be so right!...except for one HUGE detail...


Where's God in all of that?


Don't get me wrong, God is so evidently here it's crazy.
It's just a matter of seeing Him. Or, I guess, shoving everything else out of the way to have a clear view of Him would be a better way to put it.

I've been so easily distracted lately with everything. Something so simple as opening your eyes to see Him working is turned into this arduous task when put on top of all of life's demands.
As I was looking through my prayer journal last night, I noticed a reoccurring theme in every single prayer -- "God, guide my thoughts to focus on you, because I know when I put You first, everything else will fall into place."
That last part has seriously almost become cliche to me, but it is so so true! So much joy and a sense of ease comes into life when you do this! You would think that it wouldn't be that hard to forget...
Or that you would do absolutely anything to keep it up...

Paul tells us in his letter to the Colossians to "let our lives be built on Him" -- a little more extreme than just reading those couple of verses before bedtime.

Our entire lives. I mean, He did make them...and, He did give up His for us...so it only makes sense!

He has given me so much, it's INSANE. So much that I don't even deserve...

And I can't even find the time in my "busy" day to focus on Him.

"Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things." - Colossians 3:2